still rocking the casbah

12/10/10

yah

tiniest bananas that anyone has ever eaten
we needed them

12/8/10

"I’VE GOT TWO DAUGHTERS WHO WILL HAVE

TO MAKE THEIR WAY IN THIS SKINNY-OBSESSED WORLD,

AND IT WORRIES ME, BECAUSE I DON’T WANT THEM TO BE

EMPTY-HEADED, SELF-OBSESSED, EMACIATED CLONES;

I’D RATHER THEY WERE INDEPENDENT, INTERESTING,

IDEALISTIC, KIND, OPINIONATED, ORIGINAL, FUNNY –

A THOUSAND THINGS, BEFORE ‘THIN’. AND FRANKLY,

I’D RATHER THEY DIDN’T GIVE A GUST OF STINKING CHIHUAHUA FLATULENCE

WHETHER THE WOMAN STANDING NEXT TO THEM HAS FLESHIER KNEES THAN THEY DO.

LET MY GIRLS BE HERMIONES, RATHER THAN PANSY PARKINSONS.

LET THEM NEVER BE STUPID GIRLS."

-j.k. rowling

12/6/10

I studied the book of Ruth this week for a short story essay in my English class-mainly chapter 3. and OH MY GOSH.. if you haven't read it, go. read it. I feel like it upped this weeks significance because it had such an impact on me.

In chapter 3,( this is after Ruth and Naomi lost everything, and Ruth makes a promise to follow and take care of Naomi. She leaves her family and home and religion and takes upon herself everything that Naomi believes and follows her to her to a totally different country-yikes.. I can't even imagine.)

Naomi shares her desire for Ruth to be happy and loved once again. She tells Ruth that she needs to go present herself to Boaz. Naomi gives Ruth instructions as to how to prepare herself to meet with Boaz. She then tells Ruth to go to the threshing floor, where Boaz was protecting the harvested grain. She was to uncover his feet and lie down, which symbolized commitment and submission. Ruth needed to be redeemed, so she went to her kinsman (which pretty much means the only person capable of saving, taking care of, redeeming ect.) and humbled herself before Him and waited for Him to respond. I feel like we need to follow Ruth ... We need to be redeemed over and over again... but it is almost like we forget the process. First, we need to prepare ourselves to enter into His presence. James talks about the fact that we need to have clean hands and pure hearts. Next we need to fall at His feet in faith and surrender ourselves, our dreams, our passions, our desires... then we need to wait on Him.

It's been hard trying to figure out what it means for me to fully surrender all of these things to Christ... but just like Ruth, I want to be made new.

The next couple of verses say that when Boaz noticed that Ruth was there, he was pleased. He called her a woman of excellence. ... and then they get married later and have a kid and their family ends up being a part of the Genealogy of Jesus blahblahblah...

but I just think its so cool that this amazing love story is a picture of our relationship with Jesus.

10/28/10

holga

my sister got this holga camera for christmas,

and i have been trying to save the film because i only have

3 rolls of 12 shots each. the anticipation was killing me.. i used

one of the rolls randomly while i was home for fall break.

I know i could have taken more interesting pictures, but it just

shows how unbelievably awesome this camera is that,

even with the lack of creativity, the picture is really cool!

here are a few examples of what i want to do with the last two rolls (whether or not i can pull it off is a different story):

9/22/10

i miss my best friend.

you know how most best friends have like... secret handshakes or best and friends necklaces?

we have hula dancers.

i guess that its weird, but i miss my best friend more than usual lately. i feel like if she moved here, school would be so much easier on every level.. i would have more fun, go on more adventures, meet more people... i sound pathetic.

whatever...

anyway, today was a pretty great day. the choir that i am in sang for campus church tonight! it was awesome.. and huge. i honestly still cannot believe that i am here and able to be a small part of something so huge. .. speaking of huge, my school is so big that we have our own chic fil a. and barnes and noble. i had my group piano lesson today... oh my goodness. my professor, dr. suttles, has to think that i am like mentally handicapped or something. i feel like he looks at me like i am five everytime it is my turn to play a piece. today i had to play boogie woogie and i thought i did pretty great! but, he laughed! what??! it was ok, because i know that i really am trying hard. it is just going to take alittle while. my first piano goal is to be able to play the scientist... soon. very soon.

ps... why is it that the LU campus band seems to be like famous? i think its so dumb.. but even i stare when i seem them in public.. its like seeing a dog walk on its hind legs.

really awesome verse today: 2Cor 7:5-7.

are you the kind of person that likes to people watch? if so.. are you also the kind of person that thinks everyone looks like someone else that you know like your uncle mark, or the kid from clarissa explains it all.... if so, we should be friends and observe strangers together. i swear, i saw my 4th grade teacher Miss Zawaski, and a young danny devito today while i was walking through this tunnel that takes me to all of my classes, and seems to get longer and more echo-ey everyday...

well, i am sleepy and i have a 7:40 class tomorrow morning.

goodnight

9/21/10

the perks of being a wallflower

so, new school. i never knew that would mean what it means here. there are things that i love and things that i dont understand. i love meeting new people everyday.. i love that there are so many hidden rooms and i get lost all of the time, like hogwarts... i love my room and my quadand all of my room mates.. i love my brother dorm... i love the musicandconvo and my classes and the coffee shops and downtown.. there are so many good things.. andyet, there are so many things that are the kind of new that make a person feel like theyjust want to be home for a little while.. like the fact that i feel somisunderstood sometimes, and the fact that this is the first place that no one knows to make fun of me every time they hear the song "twinkle twinkle little star" and that i have to re-introduce myself and choose betweensaying "philly" or "philadelphia" every day. ... obnoxious. or feeling like the new kid still.. or sucking at music theory even after tutoring. it kind of hit me this week.. that i am just another person here. nothing special, just a wallflower observing and trying to find a comfort zone and a place to grow and thrive.

and then.. right in the midst of my negative nancy complain-fest, I was reminded that God is so much BIGGER than my downer days and my insecurities and my uncomfortable current situation. and i remembered that i was not called to be comfortable.

[James 1:2 Consider it Joy my sister when you face trials of many kinds...the testing of your faith develops perseverance.]

Thankyou, un-named encourager.

so i found some things that make me happy.