i miss my best friend.

you know how most best friends have like... secret handshakes or best and friends necklaces?

we have hula dancers.

i guess that its weird, but i miss my best friend more than usual lately. i feel like if she moved here, school would be so much easier on every level.. i would have more fun, go on more adventures, meet more people... i sound pathetic.

whatever...

anyway, today was a pretty great day. the choir that i am in sang for campus church tonight! it was awesome.. and huge. i honestly still cannot believe that i am here and able to be a small part of something so huge. .. speaking of huge, my school is so big that we have our own chic fil a. and barnes and noble. i had my group piano lesson today... oh my goodness. my professor, dr. suttles, has to think that i am like mentally handicapped or something. i feel like he looks at me like i am five everytime it is my turn to play a piece. today i had to play boogie woogie and i thought i did pretty great! but, he laughed! what??! it was ok, because i know that i really am trying hard. it is just going to take alittle while. my first piano goal is to be able to play the scientist... soon. very soon.

ps... why is it that the LU campus band seems to be like famous? i think its so dumb.. but even i stare when i seem them in public.. its like seeing a dog walk on its hind legs.

really awesome verse today: 2Cor 7:5-7.

are you the kind of person that likes to people watch? if so.. are you also the kind of person that thinks everyone looks like someone else that you know like your uncle mark, or the kid from clarissa explains it all.... if so, we should be friends and observe strangers together. i swear, i saw my 4th grade teacher Miss Zawaski, and a young danny devito today while i was walking through this tunnel that takes me to all of my classes, and seems to get longer and more echo-ey everyday...

well, i am sleepy and i have a 7:40 class tomorrow morning.

goodnight

the perks of being a wallflower

so, new school. i never knew that would mean what it means here. there are things that i love and things that i dont understand. i love meeting new people everyday.. i love that there are so many hidden rooms and i get lost all of the time, like hogwarts... i love my room and my quadand all of my room mates.. i love my brother dorm... i love the musicandconvo and my classes and the coffee shops and downtown.. there are so many good things.. andyet, there are so many things that are the kind of new that make a person feel like theyjust want to be home for a little while.. like the fact that i feel somisunderstood sometimes, and the fact that this is the first place that no one knows to make fun of me every time they hear the song "twinkle twinkle little star" and that i have to re-introduce myself and choose betweensaying "philly" or "philadelphia" every day. ... obnoxious. or feeling like the new kid still.. or sucking at music theory even after tutoring. it kind of hit me this week.. that i am just another person here. nothing special, just a wallflower observing and trying to find a comfort zone and a place to grow and thrive.

and then.. right in the midst of my negative nancy complain-fest, I was reminded that God is so much BIGGER than my downer days and my insecurities and my uncomfortable current situation. and i remembered that i was not called to be comfortable.

[James 1:2 Consider it Joy my sister when you face trials of many kinds...the testing of your faith develops perseverance.]

Thankyou, un-named encourager.

so i found some things that make me happy.

the beach that i grew up going to with my family and cousins.

who else had this book? ... i love making and receiving friendship bracelets

brett and jemaine

guilty pleasure.

sega genesis: tiny toon adventures. If you dont know, you don't deserve to.

ya.... i just loved this picture.

my room and escape from the chaos.

kristen partin photography and reminiscing England.

extra credit

I wore a starwars tshirt to class today and my teacher gave me extra credit. Good day.